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Bugs Crawling Under My Skin

Something is crawling under my skin; I feel something moving and eating me from the inside out.  Nobody will believe me; they say this is not possible. I feel them crawling on me and I brush them off, but they won’t go away.  I swat at them and people just stare. 1, 2, 20, an …

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Guilt (Poem)

Guilt A poem by Jon Erath _______________________________________________________________________ Guilt It’s always there, Not helped by the voices always repeating Always repeating What I’ve done ____________________________________________ They say it’s nothing, But I can’t forget No, I can’t forget What I’ve done _____________________________________________ Uncontrollable rage towards my family _____________________________________________ They say it’s okay That they have forgiven me …

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Moule (A Hallucination)

Moule.  A shadow man with glowing red, fiery eyes.  I first met him in October of 2012 and he has kept in contact since, much to my dismay. I remember vividly the first time I met him.  It was in the middle of the night and this man appeared in the doorway, swung into my …

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Reality Testing with Shadows

I see shadows.  I have been experimenting with what may help with these shadows.  I don’t believe that they are real anymore.  And the only real way to get better is by believing that they aren’t real. There are several ways that I reality test the shadows.  The first way is that I take my …

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What is Real? (Poem/Song on Psychosis)

Chorus: What is real? Who is he? What is real? Who is me? Which do I follow? Which do I stop? Which should I nurture? Which should I drop? Super powers? Or am I impaired? What to have? And what should I give? Should I listen? Or should I not? No, no, no. They will …

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How I Got Rid of this Beast

This is my drawing of the hallucination that has been hunting me. I see it hiding in bushes and it pounces on me in the night. Strangely enough, I got it to go away. I did this by drawing it and coming up with ideas of how to escape from it. The weakness of this …

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Fantasies to Fun

Instead of letting your past get at you, turn it into something fun. Turn it into a story, a comic book, a video. I am turning my delusions and fantasies into a comic book. Twist the stories however you want, do what is fun for you. Do not let your creative fantasies go to waste.

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Positive Beliefs: What’s the worst that could happen?

I have found that sometimes truly believing in something positive (even if you don’t think it is true, or you think it is stupid) can really make a person feel better. I know this sounds like something that your therapist keeps telling you, but in this case, they are stressing it for a reason. For …

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Yoda vs. Dark Yoda (Conquering our Dark Side)

I think that this video is incredible. I find that this video is relatable to aspects of psychosis. Many of us, even the great hero Yoda, experience the “dark side” of ourselves. The voices within our heads often cackle or tell us to do things that we don’t want to do (as in hurt others …

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Relevative Prevalence of Schizophrenia and Bipolar Disorder

The amount of people with schizophrenia comparatively is astonishing.  If bipolar disorder was on this chart then there would be twice as many people than schizophrenia. Many people have knowledge on diseases like alzheimer’s, MS, diabetes, and muscular dystrophy; but not many have knowledge on mental disorders such as bipolar disorder and schizophrenia.  More people should know …

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